Chance and Change.

What do I need?

I need silence

I need space

I need you here

I need you now

I need you forever

I need you never

What does it matter to you what I need?

When you refuse to be clear?

When you refuse to be open?

When you refuse to see the truth?

When you refuse to look deeper?

When you are afraid to give yourself away?

When you are afraid to take me for who I am, all I am?

When you are afraid to live

an incredible, unconventional

unconditional life?

A unique town or city that has a character of variety possibly housing a college or university or perhaps an artist community. This place is near mountains and perhaps an ocean. There is much beauty in the land within the city limits and without. I live in the artsy section above and below is a cafe and small gallery. I love the seasons~ there is something melancholy, though hopeful, about fall with hint of coming winter, spring renewal and summer fun. It is a time to start dressing in warm yummy clothes and blankets cuddling underneath with my honey…

I am a beautiful wise joyful woman who always had a smile for everyone she meets. She welcomes family friends and anyone with open loving compassionate arms. People come to her to be in her presence. I offer peace. After 50, I wrote a book, regularly meditated going on occasional retreats, work trips, occasionally singing the songs I was known for. I met with some of the favorite musicians of my time and mentored a few of the younger generation, helping guide them towards the evolution of themselves and their art.

I am deep royal purple, the color of scarves and an exotic lady’s eyes, the midnight sky with a hint of moonlight enhancing the edges of my sheen, the velvet drapes in my bedroom, the robes of a rich and compassionate queen, the grapes before they are taken from the vine long after their days of ripeness, and finally the deepest wine full of chocolate and fruit, silks and satin, amethyst stones.

Wow- you’re a star! Who would have thought you would have such guts to make moves you have made and perform in front of hundreds of people! You are even more beautiful than I imagined. And you have such cute boys in your life. You get along great with the family, quite unusual relationships. You have brought much of my inner world to life. No matter what obstacles. You really are no longer shy. I am still so afraid, like a butterfly still in its cocoon- like a blank page ready to be written. But I have all the energy of the world within, and I am happy you will bring me to life!

Relax. Follow your heart. Enjoy. Be careful not to rush and not to completely fill your schedule. Take time to be with you, and take very good care of your body. Walk everyday and continue yoga and meditation. Please don’t worry so much. There really is no need. Everything is perfect. You are so loved. Your talents are already known and will guide you to the next phase. Trust life and the direction you have chosen. There is a good match for you. You might have found him by now. Stay open and allow your flowering to happen in its own time. You have nothing to fear. Go ahead and take the risks, but remember to look at all angles whenever possible. Tell the truth. Don’t allow outside influences in to poison your mind. Look around, there are amazing beings everywhere. You are intimately and infinitely held in loving arms constantly setting you free to be this great world-spirit. Fly, my child, and know there are those that will fly with you. All of us connected. One.

I pray that I will sip of my artist as I sip Sleepy-time Tea, savoring every bit of taste sweet or bitter feeling the warmth heal me on the inside so that I might be pure expression and expansion on the outside.

I pray for the continued strength and clarity in order that my light shine bright as both a candle’s flame and the sun so that I may check in every day at least once to see that I am shining.

I pray that I nurture myself with the coziness of blankets especially when the outside is cold and dark, this way I know I am being held softly and am totally taken care of- that after I have rested I may create again.