Chance and Change.

Straight

518she — Sun, 19 Feb 2012 18:13:27 +0000

Straight from one fantasy to the next; maybe instead of fantasy rather possibility. I’m looking for the next great possibility yet measuring the probability as I go. Things are not as they seem, in fact they seem so strange it will be better this way. The path becomes clearer, and I become less attached to finding something. I’m more inclined to enjoy what is before me here in the present. And I look forward expectantly to the future which I have a great hand in creating. I’m learning what it takes to move forward in a more thoughtful fashion.

Larger Context

518she — Sun, 19 Feb 2012 18:08:04 +0000

To be busy to be in love
I can do all things
with and without
Until the next becomes clear
Fleeing intentions don’t matter
I believe in this larger
context of intention
becoming clearer
with time
Not within any bounds
or expectation
Rather with expectancy
and invitation

Chemistry

518she — Sun, 22 Jan 2012 18:02:52 +0000

Chemistry.
I died.
When he took me.
He knew.
And is keeping me at bay.
I know my nature.
I will not let go.
Unless I am forced to.
Though I am open to whatever comes,
I am ultimately in his sway.
That’s a lot of power for someone unexpected.
He, nor I, expected.
Please stay far from me expectation.
For I do not want you in my life.
I’ve opened heart and opened home.
The dance isn’t before me at the moment.
So I wait with anticipation.
And full knowledge of chemistry.
Will he be there
At the end of the line
For me
And do I have the capacity
For full immersion and
Conscious connection
To a growing and learning
Spiritual being?
Yes.
I am ready.
Never been this ready.
I can hold the world.
Compete with Atlas.
Understand Orian.
And drink of the Milky Way.
I am even open
To the black hole
And the dark matter
That took him away.

Change in Season

518she — Fri, 02 Dec 2011 02:15:36 +0000

And now, something new, something rich and faceless

That intangible thing that happens when you walk out the door

No longer here, but moving into a world of movement

I am left with my right thoughts and driven to snow

The promise of which folds me into pieces

Temperature drops and I dream of you

That slightly disintegrated picture in my mind

Since I stepped out on a separate path

For the day, for the week, or for a life

One could know but one wants the snow

To fall and take our breath away with the wind

Patch me up again after all my parts have blown away

Here I stay and here I play into heart all the art

I can get my hands on will fill me with color

That exists only on the inside as I peer

Through the looking glass that is the outside

Looking forward to frost and wandering front

As the change in season confronts my own

Dragon Sleep

518she — Wed, 09 Nov 2011 05:19:13 +0000

I have been a dragon

And breathed the dragon fire

But I have not slept the dragon sleep

I have forgotten to sit silently

Without thought of my safety

Remember I am actually being totally taken care of

And I have the capability to take the utmost care of myself and others

It is natural for me to breathe heat and light into the world

To move swiftly and gracefully

Fluidly and intently then gently and slowly as I settle to land

My skin glitters lithe and colors translucent as my body moves

Muscles and limbs dancing

Flying me to the highest sky

And returning to earth

What Do I Need

518she — Wed, 09 Nov 2011 05:10:14 +0000

What do I need?

I need silence

I need space

I need you here

I need you now

I need you forever

I need you never

What does it matter to you what I need?

When you refuse to be clear?

When you refuse to be open?

When you refuse to see the truth?

When you refuse to look deeper?

When you are afraid to give yourself away?

When you are afraid to take me for who I am, all I am?

When you are afraid to live

an incredible, unconventional

unconditional life?

Ideal Environment

518she — Sun, 06 Nov 2011 05:34:28 +0000

A unique town or city that has a character of variety possibly housing a college or university or perhaps an artist community. This place is near mountains and perhaps an ocean. There is much beauty in the land within the city limits and without. I live in the artsy section above and below is a cafe and small gallery. I love the seasons~ there is something melancholy, though hopeful, about fall with hint of coming winter, spring renewal and summer fun. It is a time to start dressing in warm yummy clothes and blankets cuddling underneath with my honey…

80…

518she — Sun, 06 Nov 2011 05:29:55 +0000

I am a beautiful wise joyful woman who always had a smile for everyone she meets. She welcomes family friends and anyone with open loving compassionate arms. People come to her to be in her presence. I offer peace. After 50, I wrote a book, regularly meditated going on occasional retreats, work trips, occasionally singing the songs I was known for. I met with some of the favorite musicians of my time and mentored a few of the younger generation, helping guide them towards the evolution of themselves and their art.

Deep Royal Purple

518she — Sun, 06 Nov 2011 05:22:52 +0000

I am deep royal purple, the color of scarves and an exotic lady’s eyes, the midnight sky with a hint of moonlight enhancing the edges of my sheen, the velvet drapes in my bedroom, the robes of a rich and compassionate queen, the grapes before they are taken from the vine long after their days of ripeness, and finally the deepest wine full of chocolate and fruit, silks and satin, amethyst stones.

Dear Shelley at “32″, Love, Shelley at “8″

518she — Sun, 06 Nov 2011 04:44:50 +0000

Wow- you’re a star! Who would have thought you would have such guts to make moves you have made and perform in front of hundreds of people! You are even more beautiful than I imagined. And you have such cute boys in your life. You get along great with the family, quite unusual relationships. You have brought much of my inner world to life. No matter what obstacles. You really are no longer shy. I am still so afraid, like a butterfly still in its cocoon- like a blank page ready to be written. But I have all the energy of the world within, and I am happy you will bring me to life!